Times are good.

I am happy with the progess that I am recieving on my Case Study, my involvement with the Kings, and the Stadium developement in Cincinnati.  More meetings to have, and more to schedule.

I got introduced to a girl.  Things are good and when I didn't think I would have time for anything else she comes into my life.  I don't think this one will be so crazy.  Biology, Social work, and pre-med.  Not a bad combination.

My Aunt's sister past away today, friday the 24th.  She wasn't blood but she was family.  She was in pain and morphine didn't help as the cancer spread throughout her.  I'll never forget her big glasses and her stance with the lit cigarette grasped between her knuckles.  That is the Sallie I won't forget. 
Her son and daughter were both married before the pain hit too hard and a grandnephew was born for her to hold and see grow up for a year.  Her mother, Grandma Louis, who isn't blood but is still my family, will take it hardest as she doesn't have anything to take her mind away from her daughters' death.  Layout is sunday.

Things are good, personally, business wise, and Sallie with out pain.

Going back

There was a time in my life
a time when those I loved were around me
but I left them for what was best for me
now I want someone close to me not to do the same
how contradicting is that of me?

I went back to find memories laced in laughter
times that were lost untill the chemistry was right again
but it wasn't right in my eyes
how can I laugh about good times when I left them
and things were not worked out

Maybe they don't know how they feel about it
but the tears shed as I pulled away were all I needed to know
i was gone for two years and came back thinking
that it was just running into old friends
but instead it was a rememorance of my emotions and love for them

They were a part of me that was almost lost
i hope that this wasn't just a one time event
they were with me for over a year straight, but I left them
what is that to say of me to pack, fill up, and head out to not return
the tears shed as I pulled away were all I needed to know

Now I want a friend to do the same, how much bullshit I speak of
this is a time to reevaluate myself in my past in reference to my present
the hugs meant more than I thought they could, a simple drive was all
that was needed, for them, for me and for our hearts

We had an emotional bond but I broke the rules
i left them to go on, I didn't discuss it with them
tears told them as I left the office of finding myself and they were the last to know
terrible was the friend I was, yet now I talk about something that I could believe
as if I have never done it before...

"I am doing SOMETHING by doing NOTHING"

paraphrasing: "You are the rock at the bottom of the ocean, not the sailboat, all you see is what's around you"

That rock does nothing, its just there.  If affects everything because it allows what is around it to continue its path(system)

If someone chooses to do nothing in relevance to racial issues in this world you are accepting what is in place.  therefore you become a part of a system.  You may not agree with that system but by doing nothing you then play into that system and that I cannot agree with. 

It is the American way to chose what you want to believe in.  However, if you see someone being hung and you did nothing, then didn't you just hang them?

Another person in Texas was hung, don't worry nothingers, that person was a black person and by doing nothing and believing in a system (because you did nothing against that system) that it is okay because the system got its way, ergo you got your way by doing nothing, aka you NOTHINGER just hung a person.

but that's okay, because you did something to affect that person.  That something was to do nothing to educate others.  YOU did nothing to save someone's life.  And I try you in the court of self sufficiency.  By that I charge you with not bettering yourself into doing something to save someone.

In the United States you can be taken to court if you administer CPR on someone without a license when you are trying to save their life.  At least that person tried.  But you as a Nothinger should be tried in court for doing nothing to better yourself and those around you.

You do nothing now, but what if your friend gets hung?  who should be tried in court?  those who hung your friend or you for doing nothing to help prevent Ignorance claiming the life of YOUR friend?  These issues may not affect you now, but if it comes down to it and it happens to you, I'll be there to do something.

at least a rock has no choice but to be what it is, what of you fine sir?  you can choose to be a rock or you can choose to be affective.

-to myself

times like these are nothing to those who have nothing
I've been given a chance so why piss into the wind

I'm good at what I do as long as I do it
why do I set myself up to fail now, I'm not my father

my friends live stories and I tell them
I talk too much but don't speak enough

I work too hard when I don't need to
I figure myself out when I'm not alone but figure others out when I am

-to others

20% of information can be found on the internet
go to a Library

think of walking in someone's shoes because you can't be them
50% of black children grow up under the poverty line

I have white privledges, I know that
but I can chose not to think about it

there is talk of a Rape game,our "great country" thinks highly of women
with out them no one would be here

Jen's Birthday

Wendey's, picnic, chilled.  Drinking, two cups being thrown, party foul, doused a couch, got cut off.  Left to drink more, got followed, stole a bra, it got hung on a light.  Went to cause mischief, broke a door handle, came back.  Gave Jen water as she prayed to the gods. 

Happy Birthday Jen!